His Grace, My Journey

Nov. 11, 2012  Powerful Words of encouragement and truth from my Cousin Davine.  Very wise words, from someone who has been in the illness valley for 61\2 years.  We go through our trials to help someone else and she is sending that Christ-like love to me, through this email below.  It is done with heartfelt compassion, That only comes from where she has walked.  Love you Cuz more than I can say in words. Dear Paulette, First : I so hope your body handles this treatment better then the last and that it runs through with much more ease for you. Paulette I believe we are not given any thing we can not handle, but there are days we believe we can't. Moments we wish or wonder why we chose a certain path, but know it is the right path, if you have taken it. I wish for you with all my heart so much comfort on your most difficult days and the ability to see the light at the end of the day, even if it feels so far away, because some days it can FEEL a million miles...

Nov. 1 &  Nov. 7, 2012  (Chemo\Frenamee Treatment #2) There’s a Porcupine in the Sink  And Chitty Chatty Bang Bang                       The dawn of my 2’nd chemo\frenamee treatment had come at last.   They had told us to get our head shaved when our hair started to fall out and to be sure you purchased a soft brush.  I kind of chuckled to myself as my  head thought why…. why would I need a soft brush?  Back on the rabbit trail here…. I got up and showered in anticipation of my day with Aunt Elaine & Uncle Kevin for frenamee treatment #2.    Hum, not only was my head shaved close but what remained resembled a porcupine.  My scalp hurt a little after taking my shower, so I leaned forward to brush my head with the  soft  brush and some of my porcupine spills started falling out of my scalp.  Just to imagine, that ...

Aunt Sonja & I July 2012 Do you ever have one of those days when you are out of sorts, but just can’t put your finger on why.  Those are the days that I figure God is trying to tell me something, but I am not so receptive on the listening end.  You see one of my weakness is to “be still and know that He is God.”  It is my human desire to do things in my time, though my heart knows it is always God’s timing that is perfect.  There are so many moments, days and weeks that contain firsts’, in the land of cancer.   Actually they aren’t firsts in your head, because you have been introduced to the concept that they will happen by being taught or having read about them through the material you have been provided with.  Ah yes, but then to experience them is what makes it truly a first in your heart.  Your brain tries to absorb everything you are reading and what they have attempted to teach you, but with “chemo fog”...