Nov. 6, 2012 Hat’s Off to God’s Perfect Timing - Chemo Fog - Aunt Sonja & Uncle Dan
Aunt Sonja & I July 2012 Do you ever have one of those days when you are out of sorts, but just can’t put your finger on why. Those are the days that I figure God is trying to tell me something, but I am not so receptive on the listening end. You see one of my weakness is to “be still and know that He is God.” It is my human desire to do things in my time, though my heart knows it is always God’s timing that is perfect. There are so many moments, days and weeks that contain firsts’, in the land of cancer. Actually they aren’t firsts in your head, because you have been introduced to the concept that they will happen by being taught or having read about them through the material you have been provided with. Ah yes, but then to experience them is what makes it truly a first in your heart. Your brain tries to absorb everything you are reading and what they have attempted to teach you, but with “chemo fog” you just can’t retain things. Chemo fog is like a bad memory on steroids, yet mine still has a good sense of humor. My Mom & Dad have always taught me that we should never take ourselves so seriously, that we can’t laugh at ourselves too. Great advice, by the way!
There is one thing I would like to know and that is how my oncologists knew to the day, when my hair would fall out? Dr. Burnell explained to me that each of us reacts differently to the chemo drugs, yet she predicted when my hair would fall out exactly! Now just how is that possible? Believe me when I meet with her this Wednesday, I will tell her she was right on the money! I can remember at my initial appointment with her and she telling me that my hair would fall out and when, with gentleness yet just as matter-of-factly, as we might note the temperature that day. Of course this is the profession she has dedicated her life to and I knew from the moment that I meant her that she was a rare, special, lady. Of course I got ready for the coming of my loss of my hair in stages. There was no denial, I knew it would happen. When in Kansas with my granddaughter (Audri)… we went out to get our hair trimmed together. A special Nana, granddaughter event. Then I got an APP on my iPad and the grandkids and I did some laughing at some short hair styles they thought I should try. Lindsay got in on this with us too. Then when I got home from my visit in Kansas, Aunt Elaine went with me to get my hair cut off. Of course this was phase two. Then one day with Jamie I decided I needed to get it trimmed up shorter. Lastly when I was in the hospital last week, I got the sweet lady who cuts hair, to cut it as short as she could, because I knew the “head shave” was in my very near future. Elaine has been keeping me stylish with all the lovely hats she has crochet for me and I have worn through time on my walks as of late because the temperatures had dropped. Love my hats Elaine!
Somehow God’s timing is always perfect too. How can there be perfect timing for your hair to fall out you ask? Aunt Sonja & Uncle Dan had ask if there was anything they could do for me and I told them that I had heard there were hats to sleep in that were soft… and so for when my hair fell out I would love to have a soft hat to wear to bed to sleep in. There package for me was delivered by my Mom & Dad. Here is the message that I sent to Aunt Sonja & Uncle Dan explaining God’s perfect timing:
“I know that you always hear me say that, "God's timing is always perfect". Well for the delivery of your hats to me it was perfect. Mom & Dad brought me your package yesterday on Wednesday with the three beautiful hats to sleep in it. Today, Thursday morning, I went to wet down my hair & a lot of it starting to fall out. I had a sink full as I combed it, so I called my friend, Natalie, and she came over to shave my head tonight. So you see God's timing of the delivery of the hats was perfect! I got them, had just enough time to wash them and now will be wearing one to bed tonight! Just thought it would make you smile to know just how perfect God's timing was for the delivery of the hats. I told Lindsay when I talked to her this morning that when I got my head shaved tonight, that no one would be able to argue with me, because baby Owen & I would look just alike!
Anyway, I wanted to thank you so much for my hats. They will get lots of use now.
I don't know why I am always so amazed at God's perfect timing but I am. Thank you for listening to His still small voice and making such a difference for me!”
