Knowing God is in the Details.
July 7th, 2012 - Day After My Biopsy
View-Our Bay Window on Campobello Island, New Brunswick.
A New World - Journaled July 16 & 17, 2012
Finding Out and Stepping Into My Breast Cancer Journey
I have stepped into a richer world. You see I have been given the gift to see the world in a whole new capacity. I found out today that I have breast cancer. The way in which God allowed this to happen is testimony to His mercy and grace. I am visiting my daughter, her husband & grandchildren in Kansas. I had tried to get the results from the biopsy that had been done 6July2012. Using my trac phone, I had been unable to reach Dr. Acheson's office to get them. That was part of God's mercy and grace. You see when my doctor’s office could not reach me either, they called my husband with the results. He "Face Timed" me and shared that the biopsy was positive. What better way to find out than from my husband whom I have loved for 33 years. It was so nice to see his face and talk. Though it is not easy news to receive, I feel blessed to have received it from my husband. Amazing how this iPad can keep us so close, though we are so many miles apart. Good health has never been my strong point, but the Lord off set this by giving me a wonderful husband who has walked each journey with me faithfully. He gave me Jesus Christ to live in my very heart. I am never alone.
Many things raced through my mind when and after he told me. Of course there were tears, which are being collected for me in heaven. Emotions flow through your head, heart and some straight to your soul. Truthfully, the thought of death does not scare me, as I know Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, therefore to live is Christ and to die is gain. I comprehend those words on a depth that is almost beyond earthly measure now. The pain I feel is caused from the thoughts of what those I love will have to go through, because I must walk this journey. I have never prayed to be healed, just for God's will. For my heart knows from journeys past, that His ways are not ours... but God truly knows the beginning from the end and therefore He knows what is best. My prayer for those I love is that God be with each of them to help them through this journey wherever it might lead. My prayer for me is to have the strength to fulfill God's will so that other's might see Christ in me. Help me reach the lost and plant the seeds that will yield God's harvest. Give me the strength to keep my eyes on Jesus. There is no time for "Why me?" to enter my spirit, if I am to reflect Christ's image. Amazingly, I have a true peace that passeth all understanding as I take my first steps in this journey. Funny how instantly things look different, richer and God draws me yet deeper again. You see colors for the first time, that may well have existed before but you were too busy to see them... let alone the beauty they possess. You appreciate things on a new level. “Live your life like each day is your last” has new magnitude. For this I thank you Lord. Let me count my blessings and drink in your love Lord that you have surrounded me with within each breath that I take.
